Joel was out of town this weekend for a dental conference.
I'm a complete lunatic when Joel's gone...
like I'm talking lun-a-tic.
I put Maggie on a little mattress beside my bed and Ander in a playpen in our closet.
I had emergency phones that I slept with...
one was to speed dial Joel...
and one was to speed dial Sarah.
I went to bed with the house lit up like a Christmas tree.
I put chairs up against the outside doors.
I checked every nook and cranny before getting into my bed.
I opened all the blinds immediately after waking up.
I put shoes on the wrong feet.
My little ones looked like ragamuffins.
Getting out the door seemed next to impossible.
And my eyes could well up with tears at any moment.
It's so weird.
I mean obviously Joel works.
Sometimes a 12 hour shift... and I get along just fine.
But take him out of town and I turn into a completely different person.
When did I become so dependent?
I was married when I was 23, so there was a good 6 years of being alone that I managed just fine.
I know some of it has to do with lack of sleep,
and miss Mags sobbing for her daddy at bedtime each night,
and the responsibility of protecting and taking care of my children on my own,
and because I really really love him...
but man...
I've got to get a grip.
The good news he's back...
and we're happy.
And nobody sobbed for daddy last night before going to bed.
5 comments:
Cute little family! I hate when Mike is out of town too.
Don't feel like a lunatic because I pretty much did the same thing (keeping the lights on all night) when Brett was gone too. It feels weird not having them home.
I am the same way when Ben is away..and we are talking ..what..4 days? lol! yeah I am a mess! He is like my comfort blanket so I totally sympathize!
I hate when Josh goes out of town. I'm pretty much the same. I'm real paranoid about the locks and windows and all that too!!
This cracks me up. I don't even think twice when my Joel is out of town. I love your attachment!
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